Just Chatting and gaming streamer Matthew "Mizkif" has seemingly opened up about drug use in the alleged Twitch chat messages that surfaced on social media, and in one of the messages, he appeared to say that he "was on steroids because he thought it would fix him." On October 27, 2025, Reddit user colonbolone posted a screenshot of alleged messages shared by Mizkif in his Twitch chat that same day.According to the alleged chat logs, the former OTK (One True King) member told his audience not to harass others and to "just chill." While claiming to have "done a lot wrong in his years on Twitch that he wished he could take back," Mizkif stated:"hey. don't harass people common. just chill I'm getting people saying this place is a freaking out. you know I know I've done a lot wrong in my years on twitch that I wish I could take back. but a lot of you know I've been working on myself for the past year hard it's not weird, people don't know because people don't watch me. I've been in therapy for almost a year, been working on myself and I want to continue to do so. I'm not going to go back to the place I once was."Mizkif's alleged Twitch chat logs (Image via Reddit/colonbolone)Mizkif then seemed to share details about drug use and acknowledged using steroids, which he claimed caused "insane anger issues":"I was sucicial, depressed, and taking every type of drug possible to short term fix my brain. and in doing that I hurt myself more. I was on steroids because I thought it would fix myself. I was taking Shrooms everyday to fix my brain but that destroyed me. never take shrooms when depressed. like ever. I would take my head and push it into my pool trying to drown myself on sheooms. so for 2 years all I did is take Shrooms to fix my brain, and steroids to fix myself. I tried acid and that backfired. in doing that I know I f**ked up so bad and hurt so many people around me. I lashed out, I was angry, and out of my mind. I did take steroids that gave me insane anger issues you could tell when I was because I don't want you guys to know I was it was embarrassing. I got off steroids about a year ago fully, you can't just get off it."Miz says that his community knows he has been working on himself this past year and he's proud of who he has become byu/colonbolone inMizkif"Every time I close my eyes since 2022 while I was in Austin, I invision different ways of killing myself" - Mizkif seemingly said in his alleged Twitch chat logsMizkif's purported messages in the alleged Twitch chat logs continued, with him appearing to "take full accountability for who he was." While expressing pride in the progress he had made last year and in "who he had been becoming," the New Jersey native said:"I take full accountability for who I was, I wish I didn't just go for drugs and really focused on fixing myself. I went for short term fixes and it backfired. but I am proud of my progress this last year, I'm proud of who I've been becoming. I feel more normal then ever. it doesn't change what I did in the past, I understand people will see that and not want to come back, or not talk to me. every time I close my eyes since 2022 while I was in Austin, I invision different ways of killing myself"As of this writing, Mizkif has not responded to the allegations made by AriaSaki, Quqco, BogWytch, and Novaruu.