Marshawn Kneeland’s GF Catalina Mancera finally speaks about being in 'a dark hole' following Cowboys DE's death

Marshawn Kneeland's girlfriend, Catalina Mancera, opened up on Monday about the Dallas Cowboys defensive end's death. She shared the mental battles she has been dealing with on Instagram.

The post featured an emotional message, along with Mancera's wholesome memories with Kneeland. She started by sharing how it has been hard for her to accept the reality. Mancera is still hoping that "Marshawn will walk through our front door."

Mancera also talked about their relationship and bond, and how emotionally affected she has been by his death.

"I’m now living my worst nightmare," Mancera wrote. "Marshawn was more than just my boyfriend he was my best friend my muse, and my reason. And w out him I feel empty there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t wonder what we would be doing if you were still here, what jokes you’d be making, and what new song you learned a dance too."

Mancera said she has "sunk deeper into a dark hole" since she lost Kneeland. She ended her post by expressing her love for him and her plans to carry his legacy.

"I don’t know what life has in store for me, but you will be a part of my every step," Mancera wrote. "You will never be forgotten. I’ll love you forever, my sweet angel."

Exploring Marshawn Kneeland’s cause of death

Marshawn Kneeland was involved in a car chase with Texas police on Nov. 5. The Cowboys defensive end was driving at 145 mph, according to Fox4 News. Police followed Kneeland, assuming that the car was stolen. However, the chase ended when they lost track of him.

Kneeland's car was found crashed into a Ford F-350 truck 15 minutes later. A full-scale search was done using drones and K-9 units. He was found dead in a portable restroom inside an office complex at around 1:30 a.m. on Nov. 6. The cause of death was a self-inflicted gunshot wound, according to the Frisco Police Department.

The police also reported that Kneeland's family and girlfriend reached out to them with concerns about his safety. They were worried for him as he sent them goodbye messages at around 11:45 p.m., almost two hours before his death.

Kneeland's girlfriend, Catalina Mancera, reunited with his family a week later to "grieve hard."